November

November is here in about 30 minutes. What the heck?
So much has happened in a year. November 23rd will be my one year anniversary with my company, although I've gone through what is now 4 different locations/positions with them. I love how you just don't know where life is taking you. Who could predict? I am just so grateful for what God has given me. I really don't know what I did to deserve this.

I am so proud of myself, but so proud of my friends, and how we are all just becoming little grown-ups. Strange. I think I really am getting a few little forehead lines, which is NOT part of my grownup plan right now, so uhh, I probably need to buy some expensive cream here in a minute. How annoying! Oh well. Life is a roller coaster. We are all just going to need to strap in because it's just the beginning. Can't wait :)

busy as a bee

Boy I never thought I'd get to say it.. but I got the job at Indian Hills Country Club that i've been trying to get since.... MAY. freakin 5 months! my first day was on monday, i found out i got the job last tuesday! Life is so unpredictable. I mean, who would have thought in less than a year I'd travel between 4 jobs in the company, and end up in membership.. I'm now the Assistant Membership Director at the club. I've just been counting my blessings every night, and every morning, that I didn't give up.

Something one of the crazy old servers at Georgian Club (where I was working less than 2 months ago) told me was that if I want this job, or anything in life, don't let anybody get in my way. That the world is full of people that just give up or let people tell them no, but that I can't be that person because I will never be happy if I do. although the words came from a nutcase of a man, i couldn't get them out of my head. I won't go into the details of this whole looong process to get the job, but it was emotionally draining and i just never thought i would get here. it was all i could think about, always stressing me out. and not to say that i am always going to be happy at this job, because it's going to be sooo much work, and i have so much learning to do.. but I really feel like it's where i'm supposed to be. who knew.

i'm still doing my photography of course.. i'm photographing a wedding tomorrow, and wedding next saturday too. i am so busy i just feel like i'm never going to relax again, but it's okay. this time last year, i was miserably bored, wishing i could just get a freakin job. and now i love my job, i love my boss, and i love my apt. so, can i just say, God is good.

all i need now is not to be single.. pahaha like i have time to date right now. nice thought.

at least i'm not bored

I have a LOT going on right now, I'm starting to think I need an assistant. Well i can't let this be too long because I have to get up and work tomorrow (now I always get to bed by 12) but I actually don't mind it. I didn't expect so many great things to happen at once, or I just thought that the change and the challenges would make me unhappy i guess. But they don't.

I have an opportunity to be the assistant membership director at a country club, i interviewed for it today. I'm not sure how great i did, because i HHHAAATE interviews, i always get red in the face and just ramble, no matter how much i really know, or practice, it comes out like all crazy jumbled run on sentences. but i know that they like me already, and i'm hoping that i didn't ruin anything. it was with the C.o.o. of our company, which he's really cool but it's just intimidating i guess. I just want to come across as someone who is fun but hard working, and on a day to day basis that is fine but in an interview, its just so awkward i don't know..

anyways i'll find out if i got it for sure by late next week, tops. I want to know sooner. It would be nice just to have one thing figured out for now.

But, other than that, i'm all moved into Atlanta, with my roommates. i have a few more things i have to just get from mom's house over here, but overall it's been great! so much closer to work (although the country club job would be further away haha). oh well.

and i leave for friday to go to D.C. for Grandpa's wedding, wohoo! haha, 83 and having a real full blown wedding and rehearsal dinner. i'm so pumped. i get to do the touristy thing on sunday with dad before i come home too, which i'm so excited about! last time we were there it was snowing and we couldn't get out of the car. so this is my chance... 100 degree weather haha.

and also, lots of photo stuff going on right now. everytime i turn around there is someone wanting pictures, and i love it. but i'm worried i'll be pulled so thin here in a few weeks, just a lot at one time. but God willing I'll get through it and everything will be great! and at some point, i'll get to have fun too. i'll just have to schedule it in..

it's been forever i know

i never write in this thing because i guess i just don't have that much time anymore. It's unbelievable how much things can change in a year, i won't get into that though. anyways, I have a few big things that are going to change in the next few weeks. I got a new job.. my friend Rebekah's old job, at our corporate office. She decided to move downstairs and do accounting. So i'm taking her receptionist job. It's not that much of an upgrade, but it's a better schedule (M-F 9-5) so i don't have to work on the weekends much longer!! I say that because I'm still technically employed at the Georgian Club until they find my replacement. I have to work them both right now. Yes, I suppose it's "good" money, and yes, it sucks working that much. The new job is just as boring but in different ways. I'm hoping to get out very soon and do membership at our country club.. just waiting for everything to fall into place. sighh... patience. when and how can i get some of that?

aaaand the bigger news is, i'm moving out of Lilburn, to a deluxe apartment in the sky.... or Atlanta. yay! it's going to be a big adjustment, leaving mom. I'm sad. But i'm moving into a 3 bed, 2 bathroom apt in North Druid Hills with Amanda and Helen. It's the same complex Dana lives in, which is great!! And Emily will be right down the road, as well as her family's chickfila :) I used to work there.. how weird is that. Anyways, it's a reaaaally cute place, it even has a little fire place, and a huge porch! i want to get a hammock. no bed, no furniture, just a hammock and a book and a margarita on my porch. mmmm...

okay okay I'll stop drooling over what can't happen (because i have to majorly WORK to pay for this place) and get back to editing all these pictures i took last weekend for a wedding reception. I have about 5% done lol. No motivation. none. Summertime blues?
Is that a real thing? Oh, well that's what it is. Summertime blues. Shutup.

i'm still alive

hey i haven't posted in quite some time. every time i think about doing it, i'm like ohh i don't have the energy or time. basically, i've been the wedding lady for the last month. i photograph them, attend them, take part in them, throw showers for them, and most of all, spend money on them. it's my part time job. but i love it actually.. and i'm so flattered that my friends want to acknowledge that they know me by putting me in their weddings. haha. i mean i have the most beautiful, fun friends, its been a blast!! and how many years in my life will we get to do this, right?!

Beth's wedding was 2 weeks ago and was sooo much fun!! and Fleka's was on Saturday, and it was great seeing all our friends. And both of them were so freakin gorgeous!!! Now the only wedding i have to look forward to is Emily's in November! I'm in hers too. OH and Sara's preggo!!! I'm going to be an AUNT!!!! i forgot so much has happened since i last wrote.. Life is good!!

Well that's all the time i can concentrate on this for, sorry, I'll try to write again soon.
Oh crap i just realized i've left my laundry in the dryer for like a week now. Wrinkle City.

a break. finally

I am so busy lately I have no minute to relax i feel like! It's alright, i like the things i'm doing for the most part. I don't feel like recapping the last month but i will say that tomorrow i leave for the BEACH for a WEEK! Half with the fam, half with Beth's bachelorette party, all in Hilton Head!!! I'm so excited. I worked almost 50 hours last week, if you include the wedding i photographed and edited pictures for, I probably put in even more.

This morning I went to an "interview" type thing for a job that was offered to me at an insurance office or something, I don't know it would be as a receptionist. Idk if i'll take it because i'd be keeping my other job for the insurance. I don't want to work like 12 hour wrk days at 2 jobs i don't like lol. Anyways I got home about 30 minutes ago, finished packing my bag for the beach, and i leave in 30ish min to meet Helen for lunch in the Highlands, and then go to work until 10. Then we leave for the beach at 7am. I am so looking forward to not thinking about work or wedding presents or whatever for a little bit. I love it all but I need a break just to be with the fam.

When i get back its going to be a lot of fun jam packed into 2 weeks. If you're interested in why you won't see me until june, it's because: I get back next wednesday, work thursday, go to macon friday for Beth's rehearsal dinner, saturday for the wedding, sunday back here for flekas lingerie shower in decatur, and then monday off, back to work tuesday-saturday. then sunday i'm throwing fleka's bachelorette party, the next day is memorial day and i think i'll go to the lake with helen and stay the night. back to work tuesday, then friday fleka's rehearsal, saturday the wedding. WHEW! and in between I'm supposed to get together with like a million ppl i haven't seen in forever. ay yayyay.

I've lost 20 lbs though. I am going for 20 more. Eventually.. maybe in another year... i'll make it. lol oh well.

Oh ps Emily got engaged last week!! And she asked me to be a bridesmaid, just me and her sister, in November! i'm so happy for her. So I'll definitely need to start a wait list soon for anyone who wants me to be in their weddings coming up, maybe i'll start charging because i'm a hot commodity. hahaha

Whew!

I've been busy busy, but happy! I did fleka's engagment pictures last sunday, and they turned out wonderful. I was really happy, and i finished editing them on friday night, and gave her the cd yesterday at her bridal shower! umm let's see, after shooting the pics last sunday at stone mtn, we left to go to dinner with friends at frontera for my bday, it was so much fun!! about 15 ppl of us were there, so it was great. well then i worked this week, and it was a pretty boring work week but i made it.

yesterday was fleka's bridal shower, another bridesmaid Emily and her mom hosted it, and it was adorable. mom came with me, and it was a lot of fun even though i didn't know a lot of people there, bc everyone was really sweet. of course i should've known that bc they're friends of fleka haha. but then we had to leave a little before it was over bc i had to go to work... it was annoying. i wanted to stay and have fun, but of course.. my all important receptionist job was calling... ughh. oh well it's hopefully not going to be like this forever.

then today i took it easy bc i was so tired from yesterday. i didn't get up til 12, and then i went shopping with mom and sara, because that was sara's bday gift to me, to go shopping with me and buy me some clothes.. I got a new jacket for work, a cute shirt, and then i bought a sassy dress. lol. then i came home and laid out for a couple hours, until dinner. julie, sara, travis, mom and me met mayda and ashley at bambelini's, this italian restaurant off 29. it was deeelish.

oh and i've lost 19 lbs. since last may. bahaha, i can't believe it's been a year but hey 19 is almost 20 and that's pretty good if you ask me. i still need to lost another 20 to be happy but i'll take what i can get for now.

i'm going to the beach in about 3 weeks so i have to get myself together before then... hmmm starvation? jk. i'll be happy if i can lose 5 more before then. we'll see.

living at home

2 reasons i don't mind living at home right now:
1) mom's giant salads with all the goodies, topped with her homemade dressing
1b) her cooking in general
2) at&t u-verse. we got it yesterday. i love it. recording my shows, getting to fast forward through commercials.. it's the best thing going on in my life right now.

and those are my happy thoughts for the day. :)

wowza

This week was crazy. Busy but fun too. On Friday I went out for the first time to a "club" in atl, with Ailya, Audra and some friends from GCSU.. it wasn't what I expected. It wasn't bad I am just a horrible dancer and try to refrain as much as possible. And i got tired around, oooh 1:30 am like a normal working person, but you know the party don't stop til 8 in tha mooornin... jk. we left around 3 but i was dead dog tired. i almost fell asleep on a couch which is a dangerous thing in a club lol.

Everyday this weekend i had to work. yes, including today, Easter Sunday. it wasn't thaaat bad. Today wasn't boring and it was only for like 4 hours. Of course I'm still looking for a new job but for the time being i have to stay. I'm also looking for a new camera. Sortof a necessary purchase/bday present (so i don't feel so guilty about it) kinda thing. I can't decide what to get.. stick with my Nikon brand and get the D300s or switch to Canon, so that i can share lenses with Audra for weddings and stuff, and get the 7D. both the same price. but i'd have to sell my lenses and get all new ones if i went Canon since they aren't compatible. Siiigghh.. Idk what to do.

Tomorrow is the Braves opening home game, I'm so excited!!! It's supposed to be GORGEOUS outside, and Ana and her bf Derek are meeting me there early so we can beat traffic and tailgate. YAY!

Well.. I finally am gonna have this dang engagement shoot in the morning. One of them. I am doing my coworker's pictures at Stone Mtn in the morning if it kills us, because we've had to reschedule mmmm 4 times since the weather won't cooperate. I really hope it goes well, I don't know I'm getting a little nervous.

This past week I went with my friend/fellow photographer, Audra to a photography workshop in Atl. It was really good. Gave us some great ideas to help make us some more money and everything. I don't know if I can really be as business minded as I should and need to be but maybe that will come with time. I'm just starting out. But I'm dying to get some more lenses, and a new camera, and that's something that I haven't really felt in awhile.. I guess that's a good sign. Audra and I are thinking about making this a partnership thing, for weddings. Which would be really cool. She's awesome.

After the shoot tomorrow I'm meeting my friend Megan for lunch in Decatur, and then at night I'm playing tennis and doing dinner with Dana and hopefully Katy. I'm getting pretty pumped about my day. Plus I'll make money on the shoot so it's okay that I'm spending money on the meals lol.

As for Fleka and Brad's engagement shoot.. I don't know. It might have to be on Easter Sunday which, I have to WORK and don't even get to go to church. But I get off at 2. So it'd be after that, but before family dinner. Tight squeeze.

Dang this week is booking up fast. I already have other plans on Friday night for Ailya's bday downtown. Yes, okay, I'm popular. Gah stop being so jealous.

:)

spring?

I'm so excited it's starting to get warmer out... ahh so refreshing after the longest winter of my life. I'm in a better mood than I was last time i posted. Mainly because this past week was fantastic, for the most part. Julie was home, and I finally dusted off Debbie the debit card and went out with some friends for lunch, and went to Beth's bridal shower in Macon, and it was just so great seeing everyone. I'm serious, it was so good to laugh and get out for something other than work. Work was up and down this past week, but I don't want to get into that. I really don't want to talk about work anymore. I just want to get a paycheck.

Anyways, the plan for tomorrow: sleep in to 10:30, go run, come back and lay out and read my book, then shower and go to work at 2. i'm pretty excited about the plan. I need a tan, stan.

no title

people keep asking me, "so katey, what do you want to do with your photography, weddings, yah?" and "so what were you doing before you got this job?" no good answer for either question.

i want to know what to do with my life. apparently i'm the only one that can decide that.. but that's really easier said than done. sometimes, lately, i really wonder if photography is what i want to do at all. there. i said it. i like it, but i don't think i'm great and i don't think i'm going to be happy with a life where i have to struggle to find business all the time. i don't want to keep searching for a job that doesn't exist, and waiting to figure out how i can make it work. i'm tired of it. i just want to do something, anything, that makes me good money and doesn't make me miserable. work is work. i don't care anymore. i really don't. i don't have to stay in the job forever, i just want it now.. just for now.

i have never been patient, and i doubt i ever will be. i change my mind all the time. i am passionate about how much i dislike something, but not as much about things i like.

of course i'd love to find something that makes me extremely happy, and makes me great money, but come on.. that's not going to happen.

why can't things just happen now.

today in life

today i am glad my mom is home from puerto vallarta. she was gone alot of last week out of the country with sara, and i do NOT like having the house to myself at night. its scary!

work is fine. i'm doing an engagement photoshoot for one of my managers in a couple weeks which is pretty cool i guess, but makes me a little nervous. and other than that, its wedding fever. i'm in 2 weddings in the next 3-4 months. i feel more are on the way. i'm pretty excited about it! but my work is going to be very annoyed with how much time i need to take off. its just a receptionist job but i hate to let people down. work or friends. its not easy.

i hate that i can't figure out what to do with my life. i don't have a plan. i don't have a goal. i got lost somewhere... or i never knew where i was headed. i just thought things would eventually sort themselves out, and they haven't. i turn 23 in april.. i thought by now i would have some direction but i just can't get it together. i go back and forth, grad school, no grad school... business or art, business and art, teaching or art, i don't know. i really don't. i hate the unknown. your whole life up until now is just about being a student. well i know how to get good grades.. i don't know how to be a grown up i guess.

but i know have so much to be thankful for. this is just a temporary hurdle. i'll succeed one day i hope. i just have to keep pushing.

annoying

aaahhh i'm so annoyed with my job right now. i wouldn't say i hate it, but i reeeallllly dislike it. i'm beyond missing my old office and bosses, i mean i do, but really the point is that i freakin cant stand being talked down to for every little mistake i make. like seriously, take the stick out of your ass. i want to be around people that make me feel good. there are several people in my office that are awesome, and i love talking to and are just great people and really encouraging. but thennn there are those that are completely anal, and i just don't understand them. i can't even carry on a conversation with them.

i just want to run away and be happy somewhere. as much as i want to be happy this time in my life keeps dragging me down. i am not an unhappy person.. i hate being aggravated and upset so often. if i moved somewhere and just left all this behind maybe everything would go away.... ya right.

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okay well i haven't written so much lately becuase i'm tired and i work every night. anyways, i've lost just about 15 lbs now, since like may or whatever. so yay! except none of my work pants fit now... and i don't have time to go buy more. lol. i'm working it out with some dresses instead.

i love conan o'brien and i wish he wasn't getting pushed out by Leno. I used to like leno but this is annoying.

i haven't been able to run much at all, i don't know how i've been losing weight these last couple months.. i only get to run like once a week. tomorrow will be the day. hopefully.

well i think this weekend i'm going again with fleka to look at wedding dresses with her, and she told me last weekend that she wants me to be her maid of honor! yay. i'm excited. this weekend wedding dressing shopping part 2, and next weekend, bmaid dressing shopping at jcrew with her. i hope i fit in a smaller size than usual, that'd be cool!

well okay good nighty.

working a lot

this week i work so much, i am really kindof dreading it. i want the money but i will hate this drive.. okay i'll try to be positive!
friday i went to dallas, ga and took newborn pictures for lindsey and marks new little girl! it was fun. babies are difficult to deal with sometimes, but i think i got some good ones.

then i went to kathleen, ga to see my cousins. we went out and got a drink, and ana maria and derek met us there! it was so good to see everyone. so saturday i went to savannah for the day with jen, and it was sooo effing cold!!! but we had fun. and then today i drove back at 8am to make it back for church.

well this week i work the entire week, doubles on T,W and i have to work start working Sat night.. ugh. But before work on sat i am going wedding dress shopping with fleka! yay!! i can't wait. i like this wedding stuff. and i'm meeting with a bride next week to talk about possibly doing her wedding in November. yay!

well remember when i said there was a cute paper salesman that came into my work? well my boss decided to play matchmaker and send him a message on my fb that said i wanted to go on a date. lol. he responded.. so i don't know. i'm sure he thinks i'm a freak though lol. what can i do.

well that's all.

okay here's a post

new years eve was a lot of fun. i hope this year will be even better than the last.. i loved 2009... except for the few months that i didn't have a job and was completely miserable lol. but i have a lot to be thankful for, and i have a lot to learn from through my mistakes. so i'll just laugh about it and move on haha.

i love my friends, i love the people i have here for me in my life. i don't know what i'd do with out my family. die. probably. i want to keep looking for a job around atlanta, i don't think i'm ready for the cali thing that i had been thinking about for a little while. we'll see.

tomorrow i think i'm going to run for the first time in about 3 weeks because i've been so reluctant to go out in the cold. but i gotta do it. and i'm gonna wear warm warm clothes and suffer through it like a champ haha. then tater is coming to visit, until monday. i'm reaally excited to see her! i want to go back to work on monday because i want money but obviously i don't want to wake up at 5:30. i want the cute paper salesman to come back and chat with me.. just saying. makes work a lot less boring when you actually have someone your age come through the doors. most of the time its old grumpy men who want me to get them extension cords for their meeting room. i don't do that. do i look like a handy man? get it yourself!

okay well that's it.

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crazy

this week is getting a little out of control. i kindof like it though... yesterday morning i did a photoshoot in conyers for helen and her sister, for her mom's christmas present. and then, one of my best friends got engaged last night!!!! i'm SO excited and happy for her.
today i had to work, then we just went out to dinner with the nicholsons, which was so much fun. then tomorrow, i work 7-12:30, leaving straight from there to athens, for my photoshoot with katy for her graduation pics! i'm so excited to see her and of course i always love taking pictures. then i work tuesday 7-1, then edit katy's pictures all night, after i nap! haha. wednesday i work 8-4, and then we have our holiday christmas party at work, from 4-7. thursday i work 1-5, and friday i have katy's graduation party! and saturday i think we might do something for katey elliott's bday!

needless to say, i will be super tired. but i can't wait.

all the while, i can't stop thinking about how much i want to just do photography full time. i will just have to be patient... not one of my best qualities lol. i can't help but feel like everyone else is getting their life together, in one way or another, and i'm nowhere near that. in any aspect of my life. i don't know what path to take to get there, sometimes i wish there was a fast track. i dont want to rush through life, but i hate worrying. i just want to feel less scared.

anyways, that's all. i better get to sleep soon..

yay!

Yay- i didn't die in the van today on the way/coming back from work, even though i was scared to death because her brakes suck and it was raining

Yay- i hopefully will be getting my car back at the end of this week

Yay- i have the best mom in the world.

and YAY- i've lost 12 lbs :)
since about May.. its taken forever. Only about 15-20 more to gooooo...