my mind is mush

i can never make up my mind on what i want to do. but this has been on my brain for a while (i guess the past 4 months or so). I love art galleries. i want to sell my own stuff but there is so much competition. So, what if i worked in a gallery? or i was the director of a museum or something fantastic like that? There is a degree at the College of Charleston in SC that offers a MPA -masters of public admin- concentrating in Arts Management. It takes a year and a half. granted... its not cheap. 22k a year. there is a similar program at SCAD but its 8k more a year! i guess with the right scholarships neither one would be so bad. and if i went to SCAD i could shack up with people i know in a sweet place in atl... or stay at home..... wahh.wahhhh.

anyways, i figure that maybe this is what i should do with my love of art, and talking to people. i've been told i'm VERY charming... lol that's a joke just laugh even though you know its so true and you're just jealous..........................

haha.

woop woooop!

OMG. okay so i know the possibility of me getting this are -14% possible, but i just had a missed call earlier today and a vmail from a job i applied for, at an art studio, in HOLLYWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDD...... its an internship i guess. but what if i got it??!!!! i'm supposed to call tomorrow and "talk about my photography experience and when i'm moving out to LA".... lol okay i fibbed on my application and said i'm moving out to LA soon.. hhahaaa. you never know I COULD. i want to!!! that would be EFFING SWEET.

too exciting. just the thought of it. what if its the answer to my prayers? you know, this could be my break out of this town. before long i'll be writing books about how miserable i used to be, doing nothing but applying to jobs all day and wasting away on starbucks, the only time i get human contact during the day besides my mom. lol. okay thats a little embelished but it would sell. its 90% true. only sometimes do i meet up with friends. most of the time i do.... this.

anyways. i don't want to get my hopes up (believe me, i've learned my lesson on that. and not just with jobs. with guys, and life in general. me, pessimism??. lol) but i do like the feeling that someone actually called me. they liked my website perhaps???? maybe i should've put my blog site on my resume, that would have definitely sent the flocks of employers my way. out of pity. hahaha

yada yada yada

the sweet part of being single is... everyone has an idea of who they can set you up with. no one in particular, just "someone maybe they know" lol. i'm kidding i dont hate it, its funny. maybe one of them will work out..?

anyways i'm annoyed i can't go run in the morning. 40% chance of rain. wahh. i ate so badly today too. wooopsie!

i'm going to go buy some cute boots tomorrow i think. leatha. or suede. but under $60. think i can't do it? screw you, i'll make it happen. haha

also tomorrow is Sara's birthday! and jenna is leaving to go back to LA :( it was so good to see her. goodbyes were never my thing. sigh...

well i'm off to bed. tired. from all the laying around and eating i've done today. its hard to be me.