Whew!

I've been busy busy, but happy! I did fleka's engagment pictures last sunday, and they turned out wonderful. I was really happy, and i finished editing them on friday night, and gave her the cd yesterday at her bridal shower! umm let's see, after shooting the pics last sunday at stone mtn, we left to go to dinner with friends at frontera for my bday, it was so much fun!! about 15 ppl of us were there, so it was great. well then i worked this week, and it was a pretty boring work week but i made it.

yesterday was fleka's bridal shower, another bridesmaid Emily and her mom hosted it, and it was adorable. mom came with me, and it was a lot of fun even though i didn't know a lot of people there, bc everyone was really sweet. of course i should've known that bc they're friends of fleka haha. but then we had to leave a little before it was over bc i had to go to work... it was annoying. i wanted to stay and have fun, but of course.. my all important receptionist job was calling... ughh. oh well it's hopefully not going to be like this forever.

then today i took it easy bc i was so tired from yesterday. i didn't get up til 12, and then i went shopping with mom and sara, because that was sara's bday gift to me, to go shopping with me and buy me some clothes.. I got a new jacket for work, a cute shirt, and then i bought a sassy dress. lol. then i came home and laid out for a couple hours, until dinner. julie, sara, travis, mom and me met mayda and ashley at bambelini's, this italian restaurant off 29. it was deeelish.

oh and i've lost 19 lbs. since last may. bahaha, i can't believe it's been a year but hey 19 is almost 20 and that's pretty good if you ask me. i still need to lost another 20 to be happy but i'll take what i can get for now.

i'm going to the beach in about 3 weeks so i have to get myself together before then... hmmm starvation? jk. i'll be happy if i can lose 5 more before then. we'll see.

living at home

2 reasons i don't mind living at home right now:
1) mom's giant salads with all the goodies, topped with her homemade dressing
1b) her cooking in general
2) at&t u-verse. we got it yesterday. i love it. recording my shows, getting to fast forward through commercials.. it's the best thing going on in my life right now.

and those are my happy thoughts for the day. :)

wowza

This week was crazy. Busy but fun too. On Friday I went out for the first time to a "club" in atl, with Ailya, Audra and some friends from GCSU.. it wasn't what I expected. It wasn't bad I am just a horrible dancer and try to refrain as much as possible. And i got tired around, oooh 1:30 am like a normal working person, but you know the party don't stop til 8 in tha mooornin... jk. we left around 3 but i was dead dog tired. i almost fell asleep on a couch which is a dangerous thing in a club lol.

Everyday this weekend i had to work. yes, including today, Easter Sunday. it wasn't thaaat bad. Today wasn't boring and it was only for like 4 hours. Of course I'm still looking for a new job but for the time being i have to stay. I'm also looking for a new camera. Sortof a necessary purchase/bday present (so i don't feel so guilty about it) kinda thing. I can't decide what to get.. stick with my Nikon brand and get the D300s or switch to Canon, so that i can share lenses with Audra for weddings and stuff, and get the 7D. both the same price. but i'd have to sell my lenses and get all new ones if i went Canon since they aren't compatible. Siiigghh.. Idk what to do.

Tomorrow is the Braves opening home game, I'm so excited!!! It's supposed to be GORGEOUS outside, and Ana and her bf Derek are meeting me there early so we can beat traffic and tailgate. YAY!

Well.. I finally am gonna have this dang engagement shoot in the morning. One of them. I am doing my coworker's pictures at Stone Mtn in the morning if it kills us, because we've had to reschedule mmmm 4 times since the weather won't cooperate. I really hope it goes well, I don't know I'm getting a little nervous.

This past week I went with my friend/fellow photographer, Audra to a photography workshop in Atl. It was really good. Gave us some great ideas to help make us some more money and everything. I don't know if I can really be as business minded as I should and need to be but maybe that will come with time. I'm just starting out. But I'm dying to get some more lenses, and a new camera, and that's something that I haven't really felt in awhile.. I guess that's a good sign. Audra and I are thinking about making this a partnership thing, for weddings. Which would be really cool. She's awesome.

After the shoot tomorrow I'm meeting my friend Megan for lunch in Decatur, and then at night I'm playing tennis and doing dinner with Dana and hopefully Katy. I'm getting pretty pumped about my day. Plus I'll make money on the shoot so it's okay that I'm spending money on the meals lol.

As for Fleka and Brad's engagement shoot.. I don't know. It might have to be on Easter Sunday which, I have to WORK and don't even get to go to church. But I get off at 2. So it'd be after that, but before family dinner. Tight squeeze.

Dang this week is booking up fast. I already have other plans on Friday night for Ailya's bday downtown. Yes, okay, I'm popular. Gah stop being so jealous.

:)

spring?

I'm so excited it's starting to get warmer out... ahh so refreshing after the longest winter of my life. I'm in a better mood than I was last time i posted. Mainly because this past week was fantastic, for the most part. Julie was home, and I finally dusted off Debbie the debit card and went out with some friends for lunch, and went to Beth's bridal shower in Macon, and it was just so great seeing everyone. I'm serious, it was so good to laugh and get out for something other than work. Work was up and down this past week, but I don't want to get into that. I really don't want to talk about work anymore. I just want to get a paycheck.

Anyways, the plan for tomorrow: sleep in to 10:30, go run, come back and lay out and read my book, then shower and go to work at 2. i'm pretty excited about the plan. I need a tan, stan.

no title

people keep asking me, "so katey, what do you want to do with your photography, weddings, yah?" and "so what were you doing before you got this job?" no good answer for either question.

i want to know what to do with my life. apparently i'm the only one that can decide that.. but that's really easier said than done. sometimes, lately, i really wonder if photography is what i want to do at all. there. i said it. i like it, but i don't think i'm great and i don't think i'm going to be happy with a life where i have to struggle to find business all the time. i don't want to keep searching for a job that doesn't exist, and waiting to figure out how i can make it work. i'm tired of it. i just want to do something, anything, that makes me good money and doesn't make me miserable. work is work. i don't care anymore. i really don't. i don't have to stay in the job forever, i just want it now.. just for now.

i have never been patient, and i doubt i ever will be. i change my mind all the time. i am passionate about how much i dislike something, but not as much about things i like.

of course i'd love to find something that makes me extremely happy, and makes me great money, but come on.. that's not going to happen.

why can't things just happen now.

today in life

today i am glad my mom is home from puerto vallarta. she was gone alot of last week out of the country with sara, and i do NOT like having the house to myself at night. its scary!

work is fine. i'm doing an engagement photoshoot for one of my managers in a couple weeks which is pretty cool i guess, but makes me a little nervous. and other than that, its wedding fever. i'm in 2 weddings in the next 3-4 months. i feel more are on the way. i'm pretty excited about it! but my work is going to be very annoyed with how much time i need to take off. its just a receptionist job but i hate to let people down. work or friends. its not easy.

i hate that i can't figure out what to do with my life. i don't have a plan. i don't have a goal. i got lost somewhere... or i never knew where i was headed. i just thought things would eventually sort themselves out, and they haven't. i turn 23 in april.. i thought by now i would have some direction but i just can't get it together. i go back and forth, grad school, no grad school... business or art, business and art, teaching or art, i don't know. i really don't. i hate the unknown. your whole life up until now is just about being a student. well i know how to get good grades.. i don't know how to be a grown up i guess.

but i know have so much to be thankful for. this is just a temporary hurdle. i'll succeed one day i hope. i just have to keep pushing.