Well.. I finally am gonna have this dang engagement shoot in the morning. One of them. I am doing my coworker's pictures at Stone Mtn in the morning if it kills us, because we've had to reschedule mmmm 4 times since the weather won't cooperate. I really hope it goes well, I don't know I'm getting a little nervous.

This past week I went with my friend/fellow photographer, Audra to a photography workshop in Atl. It was really good. Gave us some great ideas to help make us some more money and everything. I don't know if I can really be as business minded as I should and need to be but maybe that will come with time. I'm just starting out. But I'm dying to get some more lenses, and a new camera, and that's something that I haven't really felt in awhile.. I guess that's a good sign. Audra and I are thinking about making this a partnership thing, for weddings. Which would be really cool. She's awesome.

After the shoot tomorrow I'm meeting my friend Megan for lunch in Decatur, and then at night I'm playing tennis and doing dinner with Dana and hopefully Katy. I'm getting pretty pumped about my day. Plus I'll make money on the shoot so it's okay that I'm spending money on the meals lol.

As for Fleka and Brad's engagement shoot.. I don't know. It might have to be on Easter Sunday which, I have to WORK and don't even get to go to church. But I get off at 2. So it'd be after that, but before family dinner. Tight squeeze.

Dang this week is booking up fast. I already have other plans on Friday night for Ailya's bday downtown. Yes, okay, I'm popular. Gah stop being so jealous.

:)

spring?

I'm so excited it's starting to get warmer out... ahh so refreshing after the longest winter of my life. I'm in a better mood than I was last time i posted. Mainly because this past week was fantastic, for the most part. Julie was home, and I finally dusted off Debbie the debit card and went out with some friends for lunch, and went to Beth's bridal shower in Macon, and it was just so great seeing everyone. I'm serious, it was so good to laugh and get out for something other than work. Work was up and down this past week, but I don't want to get into that. I really don't want to talk about work anymore. I just want to get a paycheck.

Anyways, the plan for tomorrow: sleep in to 10:30, go run, come back and lay out and read my book, then shower and go to work at 2. i'm pretty excited about the plan. I need a tan, stan.

no title

people keep asking me, "so katey, what do you want to do with your photography, weddings, yah?" and "so what were you doing before you got this job?" no good answer for either question.

i want to know what to do with my life. apparently i'm the only one that can decide that.. but that's really easier said than done. sometimes, lately, i really wonder if photography is what i want to do at all. there. i said it. i like it, but i don't think i'm great and i don't think i'm going to be happy with a life where i have to struggle to find business all the time. i don't want to keep searching for a job that doesn't exist, and waiting to figure out how i can make it work. i'm tired of it. i just want to do something, anything, that makes me good money and doesn't make me miserable. work is work. i don't care anymore. i really don't. i don't have to stay in the job forever, i just want it now.. just for now.

i have never been patient, and i doubt i ever will be. i change my mind all the time. i am passionate about how much i dislike something, but not as much about things i like.

of course i'd love to find something that makes me extremely happy, and makes me great money, but come on.. that's not going to happen.

why can't things just happen now.

today in life

today i am glad my mom is home from puerto vallarta. she was gone alot of last week out of the country with sara, and i do NOT like having the house to myself at night. its scary!

work is fine. i'm doing an engagement photoshoot for one of my managers in a couple weeks which is pretty cool i guess, but makes me a little nervous. and other than that, its wedding fever. i'm in 2 weddings in the next 3-4 months. i feel more are on the way. i'm pretty excited about it! but my work is going to be very annoyed with how much time i need to take off. its just a receptionist job but i hate to let people down. work or friends. its not easy.

i hate that i can't figure out what to do with my life. i don't have a plan. i don't have a goal. i got lost somewhere... or i never knew where i was headed. i just thought things would eventually sort themselves out, and they haven't. i turn 23 in april.. i thought by now i would have some direction but i just can't get it together. i go back and forth, grad school, no grad school... business or art, business and art, teaching or art, i don't know. i really don't. i hate the unknown. your whole life up until now is just about being a student. well i know how to get good grades.. i don't know how to be a grown up i guess.

but i know have so much to be thankful for. this is just a temporary hurdle. i'll succeed one day i hope. i just have to keep pushing.

annoying

aaahhh i'm so annoyed with my job right now. i wouldn't say i hate it, but i reeeallllly dislike it. i'm beyond missing my old office and bosses, i mean i do, but really the point is that i freakin cant stand being talked down to for every little mistake i make. like seriously, take the stick out of your ass. i want to be around people that make me feel good. there are several people in my office that are awesome, and i love talking to and are just great people and really encouraging. but thennn there are those that are completely anal, and i just don't understand them. i can't even carry on a conversation with them.

i just want to run away and be happy somewhere. as much as i want to be happy this time in my life keeps dragging me down. i am not an unhappy person.. i hate being aggravated and upset so often. if i moved somewhere and just left all this behind maybe everything would go away.... ya right.

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okay well i haven't written so much lately becuase i'm tired and i work every night. anyways, i've lost just about 15 lbs now, since like may or whatever. so yay! except none of my work pants fit now... and i don't have time to go buy more. lol. i'm working it out with some dresses instead.

i love conan o'brien and i wish he wasn't getting pushed out by Leno. I used to like leno but this is annoying.

i haven't been able to run much at all, i don't know how i've been losing weight these last couple months.. i only get to run like once a week. tomorrow will be the day. hopefully.

well i think this weekend i'm going again with fleka to look at wedding dresses with her, and she told me last weekend that she wants me to be her maid of honor! yay. i'm excited. this weekend wedding dressing shopping part 2, and next weekend, bmaid dressing shopping at jcrew with her. i hope i fit in a smaller size than usual, that'd be cool!

well okay good nighty.

working a lot

this week i work so much, i am really kindof dreading it. i want the money but i will hate this drive.. okay i'll try to be positive!
friday i went to dallas, ga and took newborn pictures for lindsey and marks new little girl! it was fun. babies are difficult to deal with sometimes, but i think i got some good ones.

then i went to kathleen, ga to see my cousins. we went out and got a drink, and ana maria and derek met us there! it was so good to see everyone. so saturday i went to savannah for the day with jen, and it was sooo effing cold!!! but we had fun. and then today i drove back at 8am to make it back for church.

well this week i work the entire week, doubles on T,W and i have to work start working Sat night.. ugh. But before work on sat i am going wedding dress shopping with fleka! yay!! i can't wait. i like this wedding stuff. and i'm meeting with a bride next week to talk about possibly doing her wedding in November. yay!

well remember when i said there was a cute paper salesman that came into my work? well my boss decided to play matchmaker and send him a message on my fb that said i wanted to go on a date. lol. he responded.. so i don't know. i'm sure he thinks i'm a freak though lol. what can i do.

well that's all.