annoying

aaahhh i'm so annoyed with my job right now. i wouldn't say i hate it, but i reeeallllly dislike it. i'm beyond missing my old office and bosses, i mean i do, but really the point is that i freakin cant stand being talked down to for every little mistake i make. like seriously, take the stick out of your ass. i want to be around people that make me feel good. there are several people in my office that are awesome, and i love talking to and are just great people and really encouraging. but thennn there are those that are completely anal, and i just don't understand them. i can't even carry on a conversation with them.

i just want to run away and be happy somewhere. as much as i want to be happy this time in my life keeps dragging me down. i am not an unhappy person.. i hate being aggravated and upset so often. if i moved somewhere and just left all this behind maybe everything would go away.... ya right.

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okay well i haven't written so much lately becuase i'm tired and i work every night. anyways, i've lost just about 15 lbs now, since like may or whatever. so yay! except none of my work pants fit now... and i don't have time to go buy more. lol. i'm working it out with some dresses instead.

i love conan o'brien and i wish he wasn't getting pushed out by Leno. I used to like leno but this is annoying.

i haven't been able to run much at all, i don't know how i've been losing weight these last couple months.. i only get to run like once a week. tomorrow will be the day. hopefully.

well i think this weekend i'm going again with fleka to look at wedding dresses with her, and she told me last weekend that she wants me to be her maid of honor! yay. i'm excited. this weekend wedding dressing shopping part 2, and next weekend, bmaid dressing shopping at jcrew with her. i hope i fit in a smaller size than usual, that'd be cool!

well okay good nighty.

working a lot

this week i work so much, i am really kindof dreading it. i want the money but i will hate this drive.. okay i'll try to be positive!
friday i went to dallas, ga and took newborn pictures for lindsey and marks new little girl! it was fun. babies are difficult to deal with sometimes, but i think i got some good ones.

then i went to kathleen, ga to see my cousins. we went out and got a drink, and ana maria and derek met us there! it was so good to see everyone. so saturday i went to savannah for the day with jen, and it was sooo effing cold!!! but we had fun. and then today i drove back at 8am to make it back for church.

well this week i work the entire week, doubles on T,W and i have to work start working Sat night.. ugh. But before work on sat i am going wedding dress shopping with fleka! yay!! i can't wait. i like this wedding stuff. and i'm meeting with a bride next week to talk about possibly doing her wedding in November. yay!

well remember when i said there was a cute paper salesman that came into my work? well my boss decided to play matchmaker and send him a message on my fb that said i wanted to go on a date. lol. he responded.. so i don't know. i'm sure he thinks i'm a freak though lol. what can i do.

well that's all.

okay here's a post

new years eve was a lot of fun. i hope this year will be even better than the last.. i loved 2009... except for the few months that i didn't have a job and was completely miserable lol. but i have a lot to be thankful for, and i have a lot to learn from through my mistakes. so i'll just laugh about it and move on haha.

i love my friends, i love the people i have here for me in my life. i don't know what i'd do with out my family. die. probably. i want to keep looking for a job around atlanta, i don't think i'm ready for the cali thing that i had been thinking about for a little while. we'll see.

tomorrow i think i'm going to run for the first time in about 3 weeks because i've been so reluctant to go out in the cold. but i gotta do it. and i'm gonna wear warm warm clothes and suffer through it like a champ haha. then tater is coming to visit, until monday. i'm reaally excited to see her! i want to go back to work on monday because i want money but obviously i don't want to wake up at 5:30. i want the cute paper salesman to come back and chat with me.. just saying. makes work a lot less boring when you actually have someone your age come through the doors. most of the time its old grumpy men who want me to get them extension cords for their meeting room. i don't do that. do i look like a handy man? get it yourself!

okay well that's it.

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crazy

this week is getting a little out of control. i kindof like it though... yesterday morning i did a photoshoot in conyers for helen and her sister, for her mom's christmas present. and then, one of my best friends got engaged last night!!!! i'm SO excited and happy for her.
today i had to work, then we just went out to dinner with the nicholsons, which was so much fun. then tomorrow, i work 7-12:30, leaving straight from there to athens, for my photoshoot with katy for her graduation pics! i'm so excited to see her and of course i always love taking pictures. then i work tuesday 7-1, then edit katy's pictures all night, after i nap! haha. wednesday i work 8-4, and then we have our holiday christmas party at work, from 4-7. thursday i work 1-5, and friday i have katy's graduation party! and saturday i think we might do something for katey elliott's bday!

needless to say, i will be super tired. but i can't wait.

all the while, i can't stop thinking about how much i want to just do photography full time. i will just have to be patient... not one of my best qualities lol. i can't help but feel like everyone else is getting their life together, in one way or another, and i'm nowhere near that. in any aspect of my life. i don't know what path to take to get there, sometimes i wish there was a fast track. i dont want to rush through life, but i hate worrying. i just want to feel less scared.

anyways, that's all. i better get to sleep soon..

yay!

Yay- i didn't die in the van today on the way/coming back from work, even though i was scared to death because her brakes suck and it was raining

Yay- i hopefully will be getting my car back at the end of this week

Yay- i have the best mom in the world.

and YAY- i've lost 12 lbs :)
since about May.. its taken forever. Only about 15-20 more to gooooo...